Nancy Moser

Nancy Moser is the award-winning author of twenty inspirational novels. Her genres include contemporary stories including John 3:16 and Time Lottery, and historical novels of real women-of-history including Just Jane (Jane Austen) and Washington's Lady (Martha Washington). Nancy and her husband Mark live in the Midwest. She’s earned a degree in architecture, traveled extensively in Europe, and has performed in numerous theaters, symphonies, and choirs. She gives Sister Circle Seminars around the country, helping women identify their gifts as they celebrate their sisterhood. She is a fan of anything antique—humans included. Find out more at and

A Letter to God

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you.
I do not give to you as the world gives.
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

John 14:27 (NIV)

Dear Almighty Father,

Remember the lesson I learned a few months ago? The one where I realized I didn’t need to do anything to receive Your blessings? Right now I’m experiencing the flip side of that.

This Christmas season has made me think of You more often, and as You enter my thoughts I realize I’ve been ignoring you lately, trying to live under the heavenly radar. I just looked in my daily devotional book and saw that the last time I read it was months ago! I rationalize my absence by noting that I do pray to You every day—in passing. But as the days have turned into weeks, I have not truly studied Your Word or dug deep into my faith like I should have. I’ve been coasting, on cruise control. And honestly (since You know the truth, I might as well confess), I’ve thought that since something bad hasn’t happened to me, the way I’ve been living must be all right with You.

But it doesn’t feel right. My thinking has to be faulty.

So what is right? What is the truth?

In my quest for the answer, I’ll give you my basic take on things: If a person wants to reap life’s rewards, they should be very pious and good. And if they are extremely sinful, bad things should happen to them. Good actions deserve good results, and vice versa. Action and reaction.

And yet . . . I look at the world and get confused. I see good people suffering deeply, and horrible people reaping huge rewards. What gives? It’s not logical.

Hmm. Could it be that just as You give me blessings regardless of my actions, so you give me struggles regardless of my actions? Or You don’t give me struggles because of my actions?

Could it be You don’t hand out punishment or reward according to anything I do or think?

That statement is disconcerting because I like to think that I have some control over my life. I’m not talking about free will—for I know that exists. I’m talking about control over rewards and punishment. Good times and bad times.

I am not in control of the reward or struggle meter. You are. I shouldn’t live my life with the motive of trying to earn Your God-sent rewards or avoid Your God-induced pain through my actions. You are in control. I am not. And because that is true, I have a choice to make: My actions can be good—or bad. You will reward and punish me as You wish, according to your love for me. Not because of me.

So why should I choose the “good” way?

Because I love You, I wish to please You, and I want to do the right thing. Your commandments, in fact your entire Word, is eminently practical. You’ve given us clear direction regarding how You want us to live. I must choose that way—without thinking that it will get me something. I must choose Your way just because. “As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead” (James 2:26 NIV).

I think of my own children. Do they do everything they ought to do? No. But I still love them and give them rewards—out of love. And sometimes when they mess up, I get after them, or even allow them to suffer the consequences of their choices. But I still love them. We’ve heard this line before: “Nothing you do will make me stop loving you.” So it is with You, Lord. Help me remember this, and find the comfort of Your everlasting arms.

Just as we can’t earn salvation through works, neither can we earn reward or punishment. Ephesians 2:8–9 says: “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God, not by works, so that no one can boast” (NIV).

Why is it so hard for me to let go of the misconception of my own power? Why would I ever want to have power over my life when You are right there, willing to guide me and love me toward the unique purpose You have chosen for me that begins and ends with loving You?

So what can I do?

Trust You. Love You. Love others. Turn to You. Follow You. Acknowledge You. Worship You.

It’s all about letting You be God. Why is something that sounds so perfectly simple be so hard?

My mind swims and yet I see a glimmer of light as You reveal this truth to me. And so, as we move toward the day of Jesus’ birth, I fall to my knees and thank You for the blessings—and the struggles in my life. I ask You to replace my weakness with Your strength, replace my arrogance with Your humility, and replace my confusion with Your wisdom. And please forgive my flaws, my busyness, my selfishness, my ignorance, my bad choices, and my pride.

As this year ends and the next one begins, I will try to do better—not to get something from you, but just because . . .

You are my Lord.

With love,

Your child

Nancy Moser